Word...don't you love it when you realize you made a mistake and then were able to fix it and make it so things will hopefully actually work out. Ha I know this blog along with the two preceding it are rather vague. But hey, I like this whole blog thing because I feel like I can let out small peices of how I feel at the moment cause it definitely feels good to somewhat let known what is going on inside my head rather than keep it inside. I suppose vagueness is better than nothing.
I would also like to say I appreciate the advice that a few people have given me. You know who you are. And just like any of my blogs if you would really like to know I would gladly explain the actual stories behind the blogs. But I don't expect you to ask for that. Probably a lot of people don't care that much anyways. That being one of the reasons why I don't use names for these types of blogs along with the fact that they can just make things kind of confusing and could lead people to assume thing about the people I am writing about that aren't exactly true. Thanks for your time. I promise my next blog will be more of an actual blog...you know...prethought and hopefully more of an insightful type and such. Talk to you later.
-Andy
Sunday, October 28, 2007
Thursday, October 25, 2007
So What
So what if I made a decision I am starting to regret a lot now. Is it too late to go back on m decision and maybe fix what I broke, even though one person might be disappointed. And if I do this what if the first person is still not happy with me about the decision I made and won't give me a second chance. I am rather divided at the moment.
Tuesday, October 23, 2007
The Decisions We Make
Sometimes I really hate it. I hate how we get into situations, a lot of times, like my case, by our own means, and then we realize that we have set ourselves up so that we have to make a decision. I hate how we have to disappoint someone. But I guess that's what life is eh. Decision after decision, followed by its consequences.
Sometimes its interesting thinking about what it would be like if the world was perfect and nothing we did was wrong. What if everything worked out perfectly all the time? I think that is probably a rather commonly asked question. But I think that there is a reason for that. Who wouldn't like the idea that everything in the world worked out exactly how we wanted it. We wouldn't be forced to make these decisions. But of course, we ask ourselves these things, and then we realize that one, this is impossible. It goes against human nature. And two, how boring would that become. We learn from our mistakes and our misfortunes that we go through. We would never be able to do that if everything was perfect. Life goes up and down. And when those upswings are happening, its amazing. If everything was perfect, you would feel the same all the time.
But anyways, I hate when my mind starts to mess with me and I start thinking about some of the big, or seemingly big at the moment, but not so much in hindsight, decisions that I make. Doubt enters the picture. I hate it when I realize that maybe I did something wrong. And in doing so, I have both screwed myself over as well as the person who got screwed over by the decision that I made. And I hate it because that always seems to happen to me. I can never get things right. I don't know. Maybe things at the present will actually work out how I would like, but right now it seems like I may have made a grave mistake. Whatever I guess. That's life for you eh.
Well that was a rather short one I think. I wrote it mostly on the spot basically just building off a main idea. But ya. Thanks. Talk to you later.
-Andy
Sometimes its interesting thinking about what it would be like if the world was perfect and nothing we did was wrong. What if everything worked out perfectly all the time? I think that is probably a rather commonly asked question. But I think that there is a reason for that. Who wouldn't like the idea that everything in the world worked out exactly how we wanted it. We wouldn't be forced to make these decisions. But of course, we ask ourselves these things, and then we realize that one, this is impossible. It goes against human nature. And two, how boring would that become. We learn from our mistakes and our misfortunes that we go through. We would never be able to do that if everything was perfect. Life goes up and down. And when those upswings are happening, its amazing. If everything was perfect, you would feel the same all the time.
But anyways, I hate when my mind starts to mess with me and I start thinking about some of the big, or seemingly big at the moment, but not so much in hindsight, decisions that I make. Doubt enters the picture. I hate it when I realize that maybe I did something wrong. And in doing so, I have both screwed myself over as well as the person who got screwed over by the decision that I made. And I hate it because that always seems to happen to me. I can never get things right. I don't know. Maybe things at the present will actually work out how I would like, but right now it seems like I may have made a grave mistake. Whatever I guess. That's life for you eh.
Well that was a rather short one I think. I wrote it mostly on the spot basically just building off a main idea. But ya. Thanks. Talk to you later.
-Andy
Wednesday, October 10, 2007
Insights for the day
So i was thinking. There are a couple of things that i was thinking about that just kind of have captured my thoughts today and yesterday. First, the big butts song came on the radio today. it was on 106.7 which plays hard rock and metal but someone requested it or something. either way i was driving home from school at lunch and it came on. Wow, whoever wrote that song was really clever. Like the whole song is sexual references but there are so many different ways he says the same thing. Except each time he says it he adds something new and each time is just as funny as the last.
I mean, the song has no real meaning. It's pretty much about sex. There is nothing too insightful or especially emotional about the song. I wouldn't guess it is was one written "from the heart." Its just clever. I would never be able to come up with the stuff that he says. Another song like that is "The Bad Touch" by the Bloodhound Gang. It is the pretty much the same thing. Just a song about sex. But it's funny and it's clever. I like it. Maybe you agree with me maybe you don't.
I was thinking about something else too. I am kind of curious why anyone, girl or guy, would put a big playboy bunny sticker on their back window. Or just like displaying it anywhere. It just doesn't make sense to me. Sticking with the sticker in the window, if it is a girl has one on the back of her car, i see it as she is one of a couple of things. One, she works for playboy. In that case i guess its alright that she has it on her car, for it is her job. Two, she is a complete slut who wants to work for playboy. Three, she isn't hot at all and just wishes she was like that... or something like that. Either way, i don't understand why a girl would want to have that kind of image for herself. If it is a guy, i see that as well as one of a couple things. One, he is like the owner for the magazine or something like that. The more likely possibilily though is that it is some guy who watches a lot of porn and masterbates a lot and who probably is a pervert and has a 18 year old girlfriend and who is 30 (not that that is a good reflection on her either but still). Now that is a pretty extreme case at least the second part. Either way, i definitely wouldn't put one of those stickers on the back of my car. But i suppose to each his own. Sorry if i offended you by saying some of those things.
Overall, those were some of my thoughts of today/yesterday. Talk to you later...
-Andy
I mean, the song has no real meaning. It's pretty much about sex. There is nothing too insightful or especially emotional about the song. I wouldn't guess it is was one written "from the heart." Its just clever. I would never be able to come up with the stuff that he says. Another song like that is "The Bad Touch" by the Bloodhound Gang. It is the pretty much the same thing. Just a song about sex. But it's funny and it's clever. I like it. Maybe you agree with me maybe you don't.
I was thinking about something else too. I am kind of curious why anyone, girl or guy, would put a big playboy bunny sticker on their back window. Or just like displaying it anywhere. It just doesn't make sense to me. Sticking with the sticker in the window, if it is a girl has one on the back of her car, i see it as she is one of a couple of things. One, she works for playboy. In that case i guess its alright that she has it on her car, for it is her job. Two, she is a complete slut who wants to work for playboy. Three, she isn't hot at all and just wishes she was like that... or something like that. Either way, i don't understand why a girl would want to have that kind of image for herself. If it is a guy, i see that as well as one of a couple things. One, he is like the owner for the magazine or something like that. The more likely possibilily though is that it is some guy who watches a lot of porn and masterbates a lot and who probably is a pervert and has a 18 year old girlfriend and who is 30 (not that that is a good reflection on her either but still). Now that is a pretty extreme case at least the second part. Either way, i definitely wouldn't put one of those stickers on the back of my car. But i suppose to each his own. Sorry if i offended you by saying some of those things.
Overall, those were some of my thoughts of today/yesterday. Talk to you later...
-Andy
Thursday, October 4, 2007
"Harrison Bergeron"
"Harrison Bergeron"
by Kurt Vonnegut
(Instead of have the whole story which is long on here i will just put the website link on. But if you havent you really should read the story, for it is really good. It takes like ten minutes to read. You will like it.)
-Andy
http://instruct.westvalley.edu/lafave/hb.html
by Kurt Vonnegut
(Instead of have the whole story which is long on here i will just put the website link on. But if you havent you really should read the story, for it is really good. It takes like ten minutes to read. You will like it.)
-Andy
http://instruct.westvalley.edu/lafave/hb.html
Wednesday, October 3, 2007
Sickness and the Future
Right now i feel kind of crappy. I think i am sick. After our hill workout today in cross county i couldnt run until i walked for a while because i felt like crap. And its still with me. I hate being sick. Whatever. I guess i will resort to drinking lots of water and hope that i get better.
Anways, on a more serious note. I guess i will talk about something that i have been thinking about a lot. That is the future and where i lie in terms of what kind of person i will be, where i will be, and so on. Its so hard i think cause pretty much anything i do there is some sort of downfall. But i guess thats how life goes.
So school has been pretty crappy lately. Its just like its so hard to find the motivation to do anything. I am pretty much the worst student ever. I only ever do a portion of my homework. And probably how i spend my nights would be looked upon by many as a waste of my time and i am dumb and i just need to do my homework. But i disagree. I was talking to ryan about this today. Like you have to judge how much time you spend doing homework based on how much you think it will be worth your time. But then i fall behind in classes sometimes and its just not a good situation.
And this is where i bring it back to the future and such. Like i suppose i have a pretty decent GPA and people would say i have a bright future ahead of me, attending some good college and getting a good job and such. But sometimes i wonder if that is actually me. Its not good, but i am a lazy person. I am really lazy. I procrastinate and i dont know how to change it. So what happens when i go to college and i suck because i am so lazy. I know, you would say dont be lazy. But its just so hard.
And then maybe i start thinking maybe i shouldnt go to college and maybe take a year off and work or do something like that. Thats what ryan said he would be doing after graduating. First of all, my parents especially would disagree hardcore. That wouldnt fly with them at all. Ha. It would be way cool but i dont know if i could do that also.
Also i was thinking about another thing too sort of about the future. I was reading this article in Rolling Stone about Hunter S. Thompson. He went through high school drinking and having fun and being a touble maker and doing all this stuff. He didnt have a care in the world about school or stuff like that. And then after a series of events he goes on to become a very famous writer who invented a new genre of writing and in some ways defined a generation. Like what was he thinking in high school. I dont know. did he know he wanted to do the stuff that he would do later in his life. I mean i think it would be cool to become famous. And i tell myself that all i have to do to become famous is do whatever i want. And it will all work out. (This is all sort of different than what i was thinking today but its hard to recall what i was thinking unless i write as i am thinking, but anyways...) But i am not going to be famous. At least there is no way i can plan on being famous in any way.
I dont know. Thats a lot to think about i suppose. I am probably overthinking everything hardcore. I guess i just need to do what i do and whatever happens happens. That was a lot of rambling so if you got here, i thank you for reading. And if you didnt get here, even though you wont know i say this to you, but i dont blame you.
-Andy
Anways, on a more serious note. I guess i will talk about something that i have been thinking about a lot. That is the future and where i lie in terms of what kind of person i will be, where i will be, and so on. Its so hard i think cause pretty much anything i do there is some sort of downfall. But i guess thats how life goes.
So school has been pretty crappy lately. Its just like its so hard to find the motivation to do anything. I am pretty much the worst student ever. I only ever do a portion of my homework. And probably how i spend my nights would be looked upon by many as a waste of my time and i am dumb and i just need to do my homework. But i disagree. I was talking to ryan about this today. Like you have to judge how much time you spend doing homework based on how much you think it will be worth your time. But then i fall behind in classes sometimes and its just not a good situation.
And this is where i bring it back to the future and such. Like i suppose i have a pretty decent GPA and people would say i have a bright future ahead of me, attending some good college and getting a good job and such. But sometimes i wonder if that is actually me. Its not good, but i am a lazy person. I am really lazy. I procrastinate and i dont know how to change it. So what happens when i go to college and i suck because i am so lazy. I know, you would say dont be lazy. But its just so hard.
And then maybe i start thinking maybe i shouldnt go to college and maybe take a year off and work or do something like that. Thats what ryan said he would be doing after graduating. First of all, my parents especially would disagree hardcore. That wouldnt fly with them at all. Ha. It would be way cool but i dont know if i could do that also.
Also i was thinking about another thing too sort of about the future. I was reading this article in Rolling Stone about Hunter S. Thompson. He went through high school drinking and having fun and being a touble maker and doing all this stuff. He didnt have a care in the world about school or stuff like that. And then after a series of events he goes on to become a very famous writer who invented a new genre of writing and in some ways defined a generation. Like what was he thinking in high school. I dont know. did he know he wanted to do the stuff that he would do later in his life. I mean i think it would be cool to become famous. And i tell myself that all i have to do to become famous is do whatever i want. And it will all work out. (This is all sort of different than what i was thinking today but its hard to recall what i was thinking unless i write as i am thinking, but anyways...) But i am not going to be famous. At least there is no way i can plan on being famous in any way.
I dont know. Thats a lot to think about i suppose. I am probably overthinking everything hardcore. I guess i just need to do what i do and whatever happens happens. That was a lot of rambling so if you got here, i thank you for reading. And if you didnt get here, even though you wont know i say this to you, but i dont blame you.
-Andy
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