Church and such

I will take some time to blog on this sunday afternoon as i sit in my room delaying to start waxing my car. I just got back from a church a few minutes ago. I wont go too deep into my faith and what i believe in and why i believe what i do but i am Catholic. I have gone to a couple other youth group activities at other churches like Central Prebeterian and the Lutheran (sorry if i spelled that wrong) church.

But i have been raised Catholic so that is what i do. I have not been raised hardcore Catholic though like some kids i suppose. My parents probably had a more strict upbringing than i did but both of them went to Catholic school at one time or another. Anways, its kind of interesting. Whenever i go to church, my mind seems to wander a lot and i often find myself thinking of things that have nothing to do with the gospel or any of the readings or the sermon. I think about running a lot, for some reason, i think about school, my friends, anything going on in my life, you know, stuff like that. Its hard cause then i realize that i havent been really paying attention and then i dont really know what the person is talking about so my mind drifts again. I dont know though, my mind doesnt really drift that seriously anywhere more than at church. Maybe its a good thing and it allows me to kind of go through everything going on. I dont know. I probably should be focusing more on whats going on in the mass but, whatever i guess.

But today was kind of different, it was a pretty intense gospel and sermon. It was about this poor guy named Laserus (that might be spelled wrong) and he lives a really hard life. Like, the poorest of the poor. He was sick and everything. But, i think, he still had his faith and overall he lived a good moral life. And then there was this other guy who was rich and had everything he could ever want. He would step over Laserus who was at his door looking for food. The rich man would step over him and pay no notice at all. Actually, he might have kicked him and pushed him aside. So in the end, they both die and Laserus goes to Heaven and is standing by Abrahams side and the rich man is looking up from hell and is in the flames and everything and asked forgiveness but Abraham just looks down and said you lived the best life and didnt share anything while Laserus didnt have anything. He told him that there were rules he had to follow and the rich man would be doomed to stay down there in torture and pain forever.

I thought that was pretty intense. I was actually listening to this one. Like not they usually have noninteresting topics the gospels, but this one just caught my attention especially well. Its just kind of scary thinking about it. Just the fact that, according to my faith, if you screw up in this life time there are no second chances. Now i am not saying thats how it is. I mean everyone believes what they want to believe. And i mean even me myself have doubts every once in a while and i am not even the most firm in my beliefs. But still, its pretty scary. I dont know. I guess it just got my attention. Well...i should probably be off to start the rest of my day. Talk to you later.
-Andy