I hate it when this happens. its the second time that it has. somehow i have offended someone who i care about a lot and they completely hate me. and its not even my fault. they are overexhagerating and its almost like they were looking for a reason to hate me. and this is the second time that i have pretty much gotten on my knees and begged for forgiveness for something that i didnt even do just cause i want the friendship back. i mean what did i do wrong to make someone who i had a great friendship with suddenly hate me. how can i even know if they wont tell me and there isnt even a reasonable reason for their sudden change of how they view me. and i ask myself why i keep doing this. why do i swallow up every bit of my pride and take the blame for everything to ask for forgiveness for something i didnt even do. it sucks. i dont know what to do. and then i dont know what to do in general. it seems like just about everyone else out there in the world has a very best friend that they are closer with than anyone else in the world. i dont have that best friend. i did. but then he started dating this girl. and we are still great friends but its not the same. we arent the type of friends where we hang out every weekend and all we do is sit and do nothing. i have other really close friends. and i am really grateful but sometimes i wish i had that best friend. its hard. i just dont know what to do. and then stuff like this happens and i am completely lost. i dont know. this has been sort of a crappy night just cause of the person who now hates me and wont even give me a chance to hear some things at least they need to know. they wont even give me a chance. and how am i supposed to feel when that person who you were close with calls you a dick and an idiot and an ass and the worst things someone can call someone else and end messages with things like bye, have a good life. i guess i just try to look to the good things in life. there have been some new good things that have been happening lately. i met this girl and i guess i have hope in the possitiliby that maybe it will turn into something really good cause i am starting to like her a lot. but we will see. i dont know. ryan, you will probably be the only one to read this, and it is a lot of rambling and it skips...but thanks ryan and anyone else who reads this.
-Andy
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Andy, sadly sometimes a person is required to be the one on the short end of the stick. Jackie recently said something that I think is very true: in any sort of friendship or relationship, the person who needs the other less has more power. Unfortunately, you seem to have gotten the short end of that stick. You're trying to save the friendship though, and while that may mean you need them, it's insanely noble that you actually put forth effort to maintain it.
I wanted to address the point about having a friend that you can say anything to, because I think that's just a matter of perspective. You may see two people that you think can say anything to each other, but each person I think knows the limitations of the friendship. I know that even though there are several people I'm really comfortable talking to, I'm certainly not comfortable telling them everything. That could just be me too though.
On the same point though, if you really are looking for that sort of a friendship with someone, generally the only way is to simply do it. Just have the conversations that you feel a little uncertain about, or just see if they want to chill and not really do anything. We all kinda suffer from not wanting to take the first step, but sadly it needs to be done.
Good luck Andy; give 'em hell.
I'm kinda late on these blogs, but we'll just pretend they're all recent.
Andy, You're such a good guy. I can't even imagine you doing something to someone that makes them 'hate' you. The way i see it, it's their loss, not yours. They were never a true friend to begin with.
And hey, i could be completely wrong, and you and said person may be friends again. If so, Congrats!
Gooooo Friendship!
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