Sunday, December 23, 2007
Wednesday, December 19, 2007
Oh man...
It is kind of a downer realizing defeat and realizing that no matter how hard I try, I can't change this bad way of how I do things. Oh well. Maybe some day I will get better about it.
Saturday, December 15, 2007
The Sine Curve of Life
I don't think I have blogged about it much or even at all, at least this, but I think it's pretty interesting how life goes sometimes. I think that it is interesting how up and down it can be, kind of like a sine curve if you know what I mean (ha i am a nerd).
It's like there will be times when life is going amazingly for one single amount of time or something, but then it suddenly plummets. Life goes from one half pi(e?) to three halves pi. Everything sucks and it seems like nothing is worth it, and you ask yourself all of these questions like why am I here? What the heck am I doing? Where am I going? You call yourself an idiot. You hate yourself. You are depressed. Those times are the worse. The lowest of the low, down there at three halves pi.
But then of course things get better. They always do. But then they get worse. They always do. I don't know I guess, if life is actually this way, at times you can take comfort or you can live in fear. Good times are ahead or bad times are ahead. Maybe that is why life is so. People think that the opposite is happening and because they think it, it is. I just thought of this, maybe I am different than everybody else and I am really talking about my own life and assuming everyone else is the same. I don't know. I still see this as how life works sometimes.
Right now life is going good for me I would say. I have awesome, supportive friends. As of last night I officially have a girlfriend, and this time I really feel different about. There really isn't any doubt at all this time. I am in a couple of bands and am very happy with how both are going. School is going alright. I am in a position to get some very good grades. I have some great choices of where I am going to go to school. Given it will be a hard decision, I know I will be happy either way. I am happy right how. I guess according to my sine theory of life I will call it, soon i will reach one half pie and then go down, so 1) I will enjoy this time of happiness that I have right now, and 2) I know that if it goes bad, it will get better.
And I think that can be a sort of message of hope for people. Ha I am all about hope. Anyways, if you are going through a bad time, just know that it will get better. Hold onto that and embrace and soon enough it will be so. Word. Well I hope you enjoyed this one. Talk to you later eh.
-Andy
It's like there will be times when life is going amazingly for one single amount of time or something, but then it suddenly plummets. Life goes from one half pi(e?) to three halves pi. Everything sucks and it seems like nothing is worth it, and you ask yourself all of these questions like why am I here? What the heck am I doing? Where am I going? You call yourself an idiot. You hate yourself. You are depressed. Those times are the worse. The lowest of the low, down there at three halves pi.
But then of course things get better. They always do. But then they get worse. They always do. I don't know I guess, if life is actually this way, at times you can take comfort or you can live in fear. Good times are ahead or bad times are ahead. Maybe that is why life is so. People think that the opposite is happening and because they think it, it is. I just thought of this, maybe I am different than everybody else and I am really talking about my own life and assuming everyone else is the same. I don't know. I still see this as how life works sometimes.
Right now life is going good for me I would say. I have awesome, supportive friends. As of last night I officially have a girlfriend, and this time I really feel different about. There really isn't any doubt at all this time. I am in a couple of bands and am very happy with how both are going. School is going alright. I am in a position to get some very good grades. I have some great choices of where I am going to go to school. Given it will be a hard decision, I know I will be happy either way. I am happy right how. I guess according to my sine theory of life I will call it, soon i will reach one half pie and then go down, so 1) I will enjoy this time of happiness that I have right now, and 2) I know that if it goes bad, it will get better.
And I think that can be a sort of message of hope for people. Ha I am all about hope. Anyways, if you are going through a bad time, just know that it will get better. Hold onto that and embrace and soon enough it will be so. Word. Well I hope you enjoyed this one. Talk to you later eh.
-Andy
Monday, December 10, 2007
A New Girl and My Friends
So I figure it has been a while since I have last blogged. This will be my first blog of December I think. I went pretty crazy last month and blogged a relatively large amount at a rate or more than one a week, not looking too much at length or topic or whatever. Anyways, just some stuff I want to address.
So I met this girl a couple of weeks ago at this girls birthday toga party. A band that I am in was playing there for a bit. And I met this girl who goes to Dawson. I thought she was pretty cool. And then we hugged goodbye, and she left, and then a week or so later she texted me, and we started talking. And now we have been talking a lot and it seems to be going well. We went to a movie and such the other day. It was fun (wow i really think people dont care about this, but i am getting to more deep stuff here pretty soon)
Anyways, I am starting to like this girl a lot and I think I definitely see dating in the future. I don't know what is going to happen though. Whatever does happen though i am hopeful that it will be good. As always I am afraid that I will screw it up like I usually do. I don't know. I always have these sort of fears that I am doing the wrong thing. Meh. We will see how it works out I suppose. She is a cool girl. Just thought I would talk about that for a little bit.
The main thing that I wanted to talk about is my appreciation for my friends and everything that they do for me. Especially you guys who read this. It really makes a difference to me. I am glad. And I am glad to be able to interact with you and become closer and develop our friendship even more.
I think that in general I would be nothing without my friends, and I hate when I screw it up with you. Throughout high school I have always wanted to have a girlfriend, one that will truly care about me. And for the most part that hasn't happened for me. At least not for extended amounts of time. But honestly, you guys, my friends, and other friends who don't read this, you and them, everybody, you all help me through that. Whether you mean to or know that or not. You are always there for me in your own ways.
Ha I know phil will read this and might have some sort of criticism. And I think that is your own way of being a good friend and being there for me. And you are also supportive as well. And Jackson, you are always there to give me good advice, and be a good friend. It is good having highly philosophical conversations about life and such. And Patti, I don't know how often you read my blog but you are as well a good friend. Someone who I can always laugh with and have a good time. Alex, thanks for running with me. It is fun and I like how we have grown a lot closer because of it. And of course Ryan. You got me into blogging, which I am very greatful. You are there for me and I love how we can talk about life and how we can help eachother or at least talk eachother through out similar situations. These are the people who read my blog the most. I have other awesome friends that I could talk about too. But you probably won't read it. Anyways........
You guys are the best. And in general, I love my friends. I hope that I can be there for you just as much as you are there for me in whatever way you need me to be there for you.
I don't know, but I feel like I am being repetitive but probably not saying all I should say and no one will get to this point but oh well I guess. I hope you enjoyed this blog. And again, all of my friends and anybody, you mean a heck of a lot to me. Thanks. Talk to you later.
-Andy
So I met this girl a couple of weeks ago at this girls birthday toga party. A band that I am in was playing there for a bit. And I met this girl who goes to Dawson. I thought she was pretty cool. And then we hugged goodbye, and she left, and then a week or so later she texted me, and we started talking. And now we have been talking a lot and it seems to be going well. We went to a movie and such the other day. It was fun (wow i really think people dont care about this, but i am getting to more deep stuff here pretty soon)
Anyways, I am starting to like this girl a lot and I think I definitely see dating in the future. I don't know what is going to happen though. Whatever does happen though i am hopeful that it will be good. As always I am afraid that I will screw it up like I usually do. I don't know. I always have these sort of fears that I am doing the wrong thing. Meh. We will see how it works out I suppose. She is a cool girl. Just thought I would talk about that for a little bit.
The main thing that I wanted to talk about is my appreciation for my friends and everything that they do for me. Especially you guys who read this. It really makes a difference to me. I am glad. And I am glad to be able to interact with you and become closer and develop our friendship even more.
I think that in general I would be nothing without my friends, and I hate when I screw it up with you. Throughout high school I have always wanted to have a girlfriend, one that will truly care about me. And for the most part that hasn't happened for me. At least not for extended amounts of time. But honestly, you guys, my friends, and other friends who don't read this, you and them, everybody, you all help me through that. Whether you mean to or know that or not. You are always there for me in your own ways.
Ha I know phil will read this and might have some sort of criticism. And I think that is your own way of being a good friend and being there for me. And you are also supportive as well. And Jackson, you are always there to give me good advice, and be a good friend. It is good having highly philosophical conversations about life and such. And Patti, I don't know how often you read my blog but you are as well a good friend. Someone who I can always laugh with and have a good time. Alex, thanks for running with me. It is fun and I like how we have grown a lot closer because of it. And of course Ryan. You got me into blogging, which I am very greatful. You are there for me and I love how we can talk about life and how we can help eachother or at least talk eachother through out similar situations. These are the people who read my blog the most. I have other awesome friends that I could talk about too. But you probably won't read it. Anyways........
You guys are the best. And in general, I love my friends. I hope that I can be there for you just as much as you are there for me in whatever way you need me to be there for you.
I don't know, but I feel like I am being repetitive but probably not saying all I should say and no one will get to this point but oh well I guess. I hope you enjoyed this blog. And again, all of my friends and anybody, you mean a heck of a lot to me. Thanks. Talk to you later.
-Andy
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