Well I don't think I have blogged for a while so I figure now would be a decent time. Ha its one o'clock in the morning. I love it. And this blog will not be a list of things as the previous one was...as stated in its title.
So I went to go see the band Tool perform live tonight. They were absolutely amazing. By far they are my favorite band and I will always remember this night as one of the best of the year and of my life I think. I thought it was so amazing how tight they sounded. I know most bands are real tight especially ones that get paid a lot of money, but when you combine the tightness and precision they have onstage with their already amazing songs, it is bliss. I don't know exactly what it is about Tool that I like so much, but whatever it is I love it. I am not saying I shouldn't like them; I very much do, but they are unique. I don't know how to describe it. But like just at the concert listening to their music it takes me away from everything else, and it allows me to simply get into the music and bang my head around in the air even though no one else in my section is doing so. But everyone is doing thier own thing, enjoying the music their own way. It was fun. The lights were amazing and everything on and around the stage and such. Those guys are my heroes. I know they don't know or don't even care probably, but ya, I really look up to them. Anyways, I highly suggest listening to their music. I will help complete your life I promise.
Gosh I feel so busy this week. It's rediculous. I like it though. I would say that I am definitely taking advantage of these days that we have off. Last weekend I went to visit Belmont University in Nashville, Tennessee (I don't know if i spelled that right). I loved it. It was such a cool school. And their music business and audio engineering programs seeem amazing. It's is cool cause as part of a project in some of the classes you have to basically use their recording studio and record someone. I don't know about you, but that sounds like something I would really like to do. I am still applying to other schools mostly because I am already committed to finishing up the application process, but honestly, it seems pointless because Belmont is where I want to go the most. Hmm...I just thought I would share that bit of information.
One more thing I think I will talk about...girls. I was dating this girl basically for three weeks, two of which were unofficial, but last week we broke up. That was again one of my shortest relationships ever. I don't know why these things keep happening to me. I hate it. Like is there something that I am doing wrong. Am I not appearing to be committed enough. Am I not nice or sweet enough? and I too nice and too sweet? I don't know what I am really doing anymore. I have gotten used to being single and at the same time having an extreme desire to have a steady girlfriend. I desire so much that perfect relationship that I always see but can never get. So I think I put myself out there in a way that I am flirty with too many girls at once and then as soon as I start dating one my mind screws with me and tells me that I should have chosen another one. I don't know. Well I guess that was what sort of happened this time. (That was just one thing going through my mind). I mean like when I have a girlfriend I am committed to her for sure and I do everything I can to keep it going. I am always hopeful that it will be good from the getgo. But my mind still screws with me. And it always ends. Half the time, whether I am dating the girl or not, and there is a common liking for eachother, she suddenly decides that she doesn't like me anymore. I don't know eh. I mean I am certainly far from giving up. I never will, for one of my main goals in life is to get married to a woman who I love and who loves me and I want to raise a family. But...I guess that won't come easy. I suppose it's not supposed to. I guess all I really want right now is for a girl who will truly care for me and be there for me. But I know that I have friends who will be there for me as well which I am grateful and helps me get over the fact that I don't have a girlfriend like that. I don't know. I guess those are just some of my thoughts on that subject. If there appears to be holes, don't worry, there are. This is only a fraction of all of my thoughts. I am simply not good enough at relaying them all. Anways, thanks for reading all this. I will talk to you later.
-Andy
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Andy I just have to say that even with a girlfriend you really care about and who you honestly think cares about you it is sometimes one of the most difficult things in the world. There will usually be some doubt, your feelings being that open there will be some very deep emotional cuts, and there will be times when you don't feel any love at all. I'm sorry that you're not meeting a steady girlfriend now, but just be ready for some moments when your head will tell the rest of you that you fucked up in your decisions. They will come; even if you're as sure as I was, if you remember that first day that we talked, they will come. Just try to perservere the shitty days.
Girls are losers. Who needs em'.
Wait, pretend i didn't say that. Oh, and Tool. I heard it was pretty great from other people too. :) You lucky d o double G you. okay, i'm sorry this comment isn't heart felt and blog related. When i'm a bit more in tune with nature i'll give the commenting another shot.
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